stroke of sadness

ok this is my first picture that ive submitted so plz go easy on me guyz! ive finally got a scanner so now i wil hav an excuse 2 draw sum stuff for ya n pop it on here.
ok, this picture i actually drew wiv a mascara brush about a year ago n its bin stuck in ma sketch book doin nothin til now. at the time i drew this i was goin through an emtional ruff patch and this picture perfectly sums up wot i was feelin at the time. i took out all my agression and frustration and also self pity by creatin this picture wiv left over makeup which is kind of ironic really. makeup is used 2 cover up a womans natural face, wereas this picture is wot my natural feelings were at the time insted of hidin them away, like the makeup, as i did in real life. repression can often be a terrible thing, epesically wen stil, a year later, u feel extactly the same and no1 has a clue becoz of the painted smile on ones face. so, by submittin this, i wanted 2 share a piece of my life wiv u by sharin my real emtions wiv u those of you who no me n my situation may understand, those who dont, happy guessing. in fact, see if u can gues wot hapened from the picture n ill let ya no if ur hot or cold. ciao. xxx